tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-60476607941525252652024-02-20T09:06:19.795-08:00Hey Sailor.Rianna Sapienhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08738585927365787795noreply@blogger.comBlogger52125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6047660794152525265.post-30625212323656203732011-06-20T23:39:00.000-07:002011-06-20T23:39:15.117-07:005 months until my wedding<br />
5months to lose weight and look better<br />
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so far my motivation is shit and I spend too much time self loathing to do anything about it.<br />
I dont know how to kick start this <br />
-_-Rianna Sapienhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08738585927365787795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6047660794152525265.post-9175035654179336172011-01-06T19:28:00.000-08:002011-01-06T19:28:39.947-08:00So obviously updating more often isnt happening. Jake is now home everyday and Adrien has been teething, I never have time to dillydally.<br />
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Now that Jake will be home more, I can have somoe freetime to interact with people outside of my family. Then I looked through my phone and realized I have no friends. <br />
Its pretty depressing, and I feel too old to go out and make friends. How do you even do that?Rianna Sapienhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08738585927365787795noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6047660794152525265.post-3832077172749222762011-01-01T19:44:00.000-08:002011-01-01T19:44:07.259-08:001-1-11Sorry blog. I didnt mean to abandon you. I stumbled onto tumblr for a while but its full of too many self obsessed teenagers who only reblog pictures of ultrathin girls in underwear and teacups. It was getting annoying. So was the "Follow me Follow me!" posts all the time.<br />
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I can update here better and alot has happened. Its a brand new year. I have much to tell but I need to put child to bed and then go to bed myself becuase I am sick. <br />
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Ill be back in the morning.Rianna Sapienhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08738585927365787795noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6047660794152525265.post-58292025692415812442010-11-16T18:18:00.000-08:002010-11-16T18:18:35.628-08:00I still find it incredibly creepy that my sisters ex husband is friends with people I went to highschool with..people who are younger that me.<br />
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The past couple of years have taken the wierdest turn. Jan. is right around the corner and I cant wait to get out.<br />
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I turn 21 tomorrow, and I have a hair appt. shwing.Rianna Sapienhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08738585927365787795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6047660794152525265.post-45449888586777298052010-11-12T14:20:00.001-08:002010-11-12T14:20:15.040-08:00II turn 21 on wednesday<br />
and I am getting my hair done<br />
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Friday we are going out to on the rocks...I feel like its the initiation into the pack hahaRianna Sapienhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08738585927365787795noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6047660794152525265.post-9182898632278615282010-10-12T20:15:00.000-07:002010-10-12T20:15:16.534-07:00Oh doctor doctorLast Monday, I finally got up the courage to seek professional help. I shook out of nervousness[or it could have been the rain] I stutterred my words, and my heart raced. This was becoming too real.<br />
I had problems that needed to be addressed and we all agreed, it was time to fix this. I took the advice to see my Primary car doctor, he would give me the help or at least point me in the direction of some.<br />
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Its hard enough admitting that having a baby, the most amazing thing in my life, has pushed me into a depression that I cant get myself out of...but this doctor, made it so much worse.<br />
He made me feel like a fool. Like PPD isnt a serious thing.<br />
This is how it went<br />
I went in for multiple things, my knee, asthma and anxiety[ppd]<br />
We went over the easy issues, got my precription filled.. figure out I may have traumatic arthritis in my knee[super great]<br />
Then my heart started racing and my hands started shaking. I brought up all my symptoms with anxiety and the post partum depression. How I had been feeling like that since my son was born but I figure I was just a new mother adjusting. How it didnt seem like a problem until it was brought to my attention. Hundreds of women go months and months without knowing.<br />
So what did the doctor have to say?<br />
"Oh we dont deal with this after 9months, its too late. That its something you will have to deal with on your own and fix on your own" then he babbled about making annual appts for checkups and stuff.<br />
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My heart sank, I had no words. I felt the tears forming but I put on a smile and breathed deeply, thanked him, took my prescription and got out of there as fast as I could. once Jake, Adrien walked out of the lobby into the hall I broke down. It took ALOT to be able to seek help and admit that i need help. No one ever wants to feel broken. No one ever wants to feel like they arent being the best mom they could be. <br />
And definitely no one should ever feel like they hate themself.<br />
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I felt my makeup running and I felt like I couldnt breathe. I had to pull it together, we had errands to run and again..I was putting this behind me. I was back to square one.<br />
Jake tried to comfort me, but i was feeling like a fool now. I couldnt help myself and now not even a doctor wanted to help. I rushed to the bathroom to change out of my workout pants[so he could take a look at my knee] into some jeans and regular clothes. I fix my makeup and sniffled, then we left the building.<br />
I broke down again at the car, and for the rest of the day i tried my best to hold back all the tears. Thinking about it pulled at my heart and reminded me of feeling alone in this.<br />
So here I am, feeling the same, looking the same, acting the same. I need to find a doctor who will help me becuase I know SOMEONE is going to help me. But I feel a bit traumatized by this doctor. Free insurance...i guess i shouldnt have expected so much. I was too much work.<br />
Last Monday, I was a little hopeful that it was the start on the road to feeling better. But now I have been pushed 3 large steps back and all I can do is try to find a new doctor, and try to find the courage to try for help... one more time.Rianna Sapienhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08738585927365787795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6047660794152525265.post-40809591154915841432010-10-07T16:45:00.000-07:002010-10-07T16:45:01.765-07:00It didnt fix meBut at least it was fun<br />
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<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc4/hs682.snc4/62189_475695405038_783915038_6532208_22568_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" px="true" src="http://sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc4/hs682.snc4/62189_475695405038_783915038_6532208_22568_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>Friday we awoke at 4am, loaded up the babe and the jumper and my toothbrush and hit the road. By 545 the sun was still down and we hit Mojave. about an hour or so later we made it to Lone pine and we got some grub and fed Adrien and continued on the road. Stopped in Bishop for some gas, changed Adriens diaper let him pretend to drive in the gas station parking lot, then got back on the road. We made it to Bridgeport around 1030 and the feeling was like no other. The fresh air, familiar shops and pine needles. The Sounds played on the ipod and we drove down Twin Lakes rd to the campgrounds. The windy road through all the ranches and cows felt like home. This was a good day.<br />
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We arrived at camp, first out of everyone[besides my parents..they arrived wednesday] The dogs greeted up and Adrien squinted his eyes searching around camp...confused since he just awoke from his nap in a totally different place. A couple hours later Jakes mom and sisters arrived. It was a party<br />
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The next morning we awoke and it was FREEZING. But we loved it. My dad made everyone breakfast. Aja, Erik, Kevin, Tia Angel, Tio Victor, Sam, Julia and Vinny had arrived sometime around 5am so the party grew some.<br />
We had breakfast, and chilled in the crisp cool morning air until everyone got changed an comfortable.<br />
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Later that night Adrien got super fussy so Jake took him to the tent to change him..he laid him on the airmatress and when he turned around he was asleep<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc4/hs702.snc4/62189_475695465038_783915038_6532220_8065884_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" ex="true" height="240" src="http://sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc4/hs702.snc4/62189_475695465038_783915038_6532220_8065884_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>eventually he woke up, it was cold that night<br />
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<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-ash2/hs342.ash2/62189_475695475038_783915038_6532222_388523_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" ex="true" height="240" src="http://sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-ash2/hs342.ash2/62189_475695475038_783915038_6532222_388523_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>The next morning we got up, we had super dad gourmet breakfast again and hung out around camp<br />
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</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc4/hs618.snc4/59817_475701705038_783915038_6532494_6513568_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" ex="true" height="320" src="http://sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc4/hs618.snc4/59817_475701705038_783915038_6532494_6513568_n.jpg" width="232" /></a></div>After reno we went to Virginia City<br />
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The next day we tried to get an early start. We drove to town and then went shooting, aftwards we to a drive to summerwood meadows to do some 4wheelin. Then e drove UP a mountain, to cavanaugh ridge<br />
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<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc4/hs682.snc4/62189_475695400038_783915038_6532207_7950706_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" ex="true" height="320" src="http://sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc4/hs682.snc4/62189_475695400038_783915038_6532207_7950706_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>These are the only pictures I have. there are more on my moms computer but Adrien doesnt give me enough time to get over there an add them to this blog [you cant tell but I have been typing this one entry and adding pictures and then saving over and over since the monday after we got home..nearly two weeks]<br />
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It really was an awesome trip but I came back home to all my problems and worries and i feel worse than ever.<br />
Now all I can think about is going back to Birdgeport, but we have a whole year to wait out.Rianna Sapienhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08738585927365787795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6047660794152525265.post-22019541918183227722010-09-16T16:38:00.000-07:002010-09-16T16:38:59.788-07:00Gotta fit this all in my post today, I leave at 4am.Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?<br />
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No, never. I am not that stupid and not that selfish.<br />
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?<br />
I have a family, and I am really damn terrific at being a mother. If I do say so myself<br />
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?<br />
I got pregnant last year, had a beautiful little boy. Its not the struggle I expected. It really is very rewarding, given that I never wanted to have kids. ever. I really feel lucky everyday, and I am proud of my decisions.<br />
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.<br />
I want to be less bitchy. Hopefully this vacation helps, if not we might need some medical intervention. I also want to lose alot of weight. I am on the road to that, i have lost 7lbs in the last week and a half, woohoo.<br />
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself <br />
[I will leave this one for when I come back and have more time.] <br />
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Day 26 – A photo of somewhere you’ve been to. <br />
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Day 27 – A picture of you last year and now and how have you changed since then?<br />
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Day 28 – Your favorite movie.<br />
REAL GENIUS<br />
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Day 29 – Something you could never get tired of doing.<br />
Singing. I could sing all day everyday.<br />
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Day 30 – A photograph of youself today + three good things that have happened in the past 30 days <br />
[I will do this one once i get back and have more time.]Rianna Sapienhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08738585927365787795noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6047660794152525265.post-13295571872620786302010-09-15T11:40:00.000-07:002010-09-15T11:40:16.482-07:00Almost time.Friday morning we FINALLY leave to go to Bridgeport. I have been waiting over a damn year for this vacation to happen. I am packing up Adriens clothes and toys tonight and some of our other stuff. The rest of the big things that Adrien uses daily will be packed up tomorrow night.<br />
I am so excited I could throw up<br />
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I have some confessions though. The big reason I am excited becuasae I am hoping this trip will be my PPD medicine. I havent seen a doctor or anyone yet, I am treating this on my own. I have my good days and I have my bad days, from here I just need to take it one day at a time. I know Jake wants me to get help because sometimes I take it out on him. But we will see were I stand when we get back home.<br />
Adrien can be overwhelming sometimes because he is turning into such an independent little boy, but suprising I dont get frustrated. I get worn out but it doesnt bother me anymore, I am used to dealing with him on my own most of everyday. The good thing about Adrien is he loves playing by himself, which makes me sad sometimes. I wish he was still that little baby that wanted to take his naps on me and sit with me all day long. Now I can barely get him to hang out with me, he either wants to play in his crib with his toys, crawl on the ground, or play in his jumperoo. Its nice to be able to get things done while he quietly[sometimes] plays...I just miss that needy baby.<br />
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Well he is awake now and hungry. nd I need to go finish laundry. See you later blog.Rianna Sapienhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08738585927365787795noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6047660794152525265.post-29672079487017885322010-09-14T19:26:00.000-07:002010-09-14T19:26:41.226-07:00Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.<br />
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Iwish I would have taken the oppurtunity to play college basketball. My fault I know, but I feel like I could have really improved and been great.<br />
Day 24 → was too much work right now..so i DELETED.<br />
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Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today <br />
this <br />
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1. I am obsessed with the color yellow.<br />
2. I am OBSESSED with Jellyfish<br />
3. I am obsessed with Dexter<br />
4. My son is my world<br />
5. So is my amazing Jake.<br />
6. I wear a size 7 shoe<br />
7. I am mexican[fullblood]<br />
8. I love being a stay at home mom, I feel very lucky to even have the privalege.<br />
9. I love dogs, I have two large labs[yellow and black]<br />
10. I want to make cake for a living<br />
11. I never wear my hair natural[curly] I straighten it before I go anywhere..always<br />
12. I am terrified of spiders...like a sissy lala<br />
13. I hate cantaloupe.<br />
14. I love to sing, but to myself.<br />
15. Despite being a natural everyday loner..I really do have a big heart and can be very social and fun sometimes.<br />
Day 24 – A photo of something that means a lot to you.<br />
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Day 25 – What’s in your purse? <br />
I dont have a purse. That was easy hahaRianna Sapienhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08738585927365787795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6047660794152525265.post-45690877990220065242010-09-13T20:07:00.000-07:002010-09-13T20:07:13.279-07:00Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?<br />
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Be there for the friend. Absolutely. Justbecuase we had a fight doesnt mean that automatically relinquishes my loyalty. A fight doesnt determine whether or not you should be there for someone in need when it involves thier well being. Its called being a decent human being, and I do have a heart. Of course there are other circumstances [yeah maybe if you murdered my dog i wouldnt give a damn about your car accident] but just verbal arguments over things that arent too serious, there should be no reason to stay away.<br />
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life. <br />
I wish I wouldnt have left the varsity team and continued playing. that will kick my ass everyday..even though i wouldnt have been able to continure playing much longer anyways...I will always miss it. <br />
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Day 21 – A photo of something that makes you happy. <br />
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Day 22 – A letter to someone who has hurt you recently <br />
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i dont want to.Rianna Sapienhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08738585927365787795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6047660794152525265.post-32282691951255296022010-09-09T13:52:00.000-07:002010-09-09T13:52:10.067-07:0019 20Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?<br />
Im not into either. I am mostly neutral on everything, serious debates or not my forte.<br />
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Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol. <br />
Niether is good. But alcohol can be acceptable in moderation and if you are not being an absolute idiot. <br />
I hate drugs, I hate weed and I really am not a fan of alcohol much either. I have seen what it does to people firsthand. Some people really dont know how to JUST have a goodtime without getting out of hand. I dont really put myself around any of that anymore <br />
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Day 19 – Another picture of yourself. <br />
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most recent<br />
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Day 20 – The meaning behind your blog name <br />
Its a Tegan and Sara song. It just brought back some memories of the summer of 07. Sometimes i hear it in the back of my head when I am taking Adrien for a walk or if the AC is on. Its wierd.Rianna Sapienhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08738585927365787795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6047660794152525265.post-70295934695188438622010-09-08T14:57:00.000-07:002010-09-08T14:57:00.363-07:00Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage<br />
FOR FOR FOR FOR. As a proud sister of a lesbian, I will always be 100% supportive to the Gay Rights movement. I wish only good things, equality, and happiness for my sister as a citizen of this country.<br />
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Day 18 – Something you crave a lot<br />
oh boy<br />
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</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://avocadopoint.com/guacamole.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="249" ox="true" src="http://avocadopoint.com/guacamole.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">I crave food like a pregnant woman becuase i dont really eat food anymore. Its just portein shakes, bars and salads for me everyday.</div>Rianna Sapienhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08738585927365787795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6047660794152525265.post-33596099994592454032010-09-07T16:53:00.000-07:002010-09-07T16:53:10.164-07:00Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something<br />
I Was Told there would be cake. I will now make the best of my humiliations.<br />
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Day 17 – A photo of you and your family<br />
here is some<br />
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Oh I could definitely name a few thats for sure. But if I have to pick one, itd be my sisters Ex Husband. He is bringing the dramzz constantly. My sister had to change her number recently and now my entire family knows about that whole wierd situation and everyones texting me and asking me questions and it makes me look like a dummy. I wish this whole thing never happend. I also hate hearing my sister calling me in tears becuase he is being mean to her and wont be civil. You really dont know who people really are sometimes...<br />
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Day 16 – Your celebrity crush<br />
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</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">I am obsessed</div>Rianna Sapienhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08738585927365787795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6047660794152525265.post-44761136593621987212010-09-04T21:36:00.001-07:002010-09-04T21:36:44.124-07:00Bullshit. you are no friend of mine.Rianna Sapienhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08738585927365787795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6047660794152525265.post-74433173819126520652010-09-03T17:53:00.000-07:002010-09-03T17:53:47.681-07:00Going to pack a few days into one post.Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.<br />
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Alot of things. I dont have many[if any] complimentable attributes.<br />
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Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)<br />
Alot of bands and artist have pulled me through some rough times. I am not a social butterfly so I spen alot of time alone, gotta find something to occupy the brain. Tegan and Sara, Alkaline trio, Test Icicles, As Tall As Lions, Forgive Durden, Incubus. The lastest Paramore cd and Lady Gaga got me through my pregnancy...haha.<br />
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)<br />
Dear You,<br />
I am going through this alone without you. That sucks. <br />
Love, Me.<br />
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Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it. <br />
I havent tried and I never want to. But my son and Jake. Gotta have them forever yo. <br />
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Day 12 – A photograph of the town you live in. <br />
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Day 13 – Your favorite musician and why?<br />
Tegan and sara, becuase they are hot and that rock.<br />
Day 14 – A TV show you’re currently addicted to.<br />
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Day 15 – Something you don’t leave the house without. <br />
My phone. If I have adrien then I never leave without his monkey blanky, extra boppys, diapers, etc. you get itRianna Sapienhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08738585927365787795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6047660794152525265.post-36129982128132150372010-09-01T12:51:00.000-07:002010-09-01T12:53:00.142-07:0016 more days till super vacationDay 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.<br />
I dont get compliments really. But I guess I have on occasion been complimented on my thick mexican hair. In the right conditions it curls nicely[naturally of course] and that seems to be a crowd pleaser.[ well with my mom dad, and Jakes mom and sisters. they all like my natural hair..i dont]<br />
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Day 11 – What’s in your makeup bag?<br />
I dont have a makeupo bag, my makeup sits in on a shelf in the bathroom and whatever i need i throw into the zipperpocket of Adriens diaper bag. Usually just foundations, powder finish, mascara, eyeliner. sometimes a shimmer lid finish.Rianna Sapienhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08738585927365787795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6047660794152525265.post-2638082153079010452010-08-31T13:20:00.000-07:002010-08-31T13:20:35.217-07:00Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.<br />
No one really.<br />
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Day 10 – A photo of our favorite place to eat<br />
I dont like to eat. but if i must, i really enjoy this<br />
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I could live off thier chicken soup.Rianna Sapienhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08738585927365787795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6047660794152525265.post-61912866499331061552010-08-28T19:29:00.000-07:002010-08-28T19:30:20.806-07:00Right RightDay 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.<br />
Green shirt, White shirt.. Sometimes you just let go.<br />
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<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc4/hs216.snc4/39118_1548999651480_1429740747_31498937_3148137_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="256" ox="true" src="http://sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc4/hs216.snc4/39118_1548999651480_1429740747_31498937_3148137_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">I'll try to hold tighter next time.</div>Day 9 – A photo of the item you last purchased<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Yeah, the only 10dollars I have had to myself in MONTHS, and I bought food. So much for starving myself.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.momtopix.com/wp-content/uploads/2010/07/chick-fil-a.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="289" ox="true" src="http://www.momtopix.com/wp-content/uploads/2010/07/chick-fil-a.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>Rianna Sapienhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08738585927365787795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6047660794152525265.post-60112961217547439612010-08-27T14:34:00.000-07:002010-08-27T14:34:28.864-07:00Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.<br />
No one really. The only person that actually comes to mind is my ex boyfriend. We dated off and on from when I was 13 till I was 18. He always managed to lead me on, then leave me hanging. Usually for drugs. And we fought. Mosatly with our words, once with our hands. I washed my hands clean of him feb 2009. never looked back.<br />
Day 8 – A song to match your mood.<br />
Faithfully. I have been singing it all day long to Adrien.Rianna Sapienhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08738585927365787795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6047660794152525265.post-2924356370177685312010-08-26T15:30:00.000-07:002010-08-26T15:30:51.774-07:00I reckon its again my turn.Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for<br />
Words cannot express how truly lucky I am.<br />
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My dream wedding was SUPPOSED to be November 19th. 2 days after my 21st birthday, in Vegas. During the fall.<br />
Given the circumstances...that is no longer going to happen, and since the holidays follow immediatly after..it probable wont happen until Jan or even after that =/<br />
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1. I was pregnant, with my first child.<br />
2. I was being forced to move out of the house I have lived in for 17years<br />
3. I was having serious knee problems and pelvic problems that made it difficult for me to be mobile..let alone move my entire house.<br />
4. My hormones were at an all time high and in a situation were I would normally sigh and walk with my head down, I was instead bawling my eyeballs out every 10 minutes, which made me grumpy, which made me bitchy, which made me sleepy, which made me cry even more.<br />
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FINALLY, this house started to feel like home. My son was crawling around the living room and yelling at the dogs. My dad talking about how lucky we were to find this house so quickly, with enough room for all of us, and a big yard for the dogs. We all felt...comfortable. We didnt even mind living across from a highschool.<br />
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Then last Sunday rolled around. We took Adrien swimming for the first time, ate in n out, it was a pretty normal Sunday for us. Until that evening, our landlord called with the news. He was having twins, so now he needs to sell our house. Unless we want to buy it, we have to move by October. Not that big of a deal...except..<br />
September 15th we are supposed to be going camping in Bridgport for 10 days. I have been waiting for this trip for two years. We couldnt go last year becuase I was pregnant. Couldnt go the begining of the season becuase Adrien was too young and no one could get work off. I would give my kidney to get a chance to take this trip, thats how much it means to me. Bridgeport is my favorite place in the world. FAVORITE.<br />
Everyone got the time off, it was going to be perfect. But now we most likely wont even be able to go. I am Absolutely crushed. Moving wouldnt have been so bad, but now cancelling my trip. Cancelling my first attempt to start a family tradition of my own with my OWN family.<br />
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this sucks,... you suck Mr. Keilborn.<br />
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so now we need to find a cheap house, again, and move within the next 30days..again.<br />
My parents are also tossing around the idea of Colorado again..so who knows..I may not even be in California by October. sigh<br />
Im gonna go take a nap with Adrien.Rianna Sapienhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08738585927365787795noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6047660794152525265.post-63824294054238070432010-08-24T16:33:00.000-07:002010-08-24T16:33:02.758-07:00I have been a little distractedBusy with certain events, I havent been able to update. So here I am.<br />
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Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.<br />
I never want to expirience ppd ever again. I know I am still going through it and still have yet to seek the help I need. No one should ever have to feel like this, especially after taking your first big steps in motherhood. The happiness my son and Jake bring me should be enough but this stupid ppd..has just gotten in the way. I know one day I'll have more children...I hope this wont be an issue anymore<br />
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<div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;">Day 6 – A photo of an animal you’d love to keep as a pet</div><div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.topnews.in/files/jelly-fish.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" ox="true" src="http://www.topnews.in/files/jelly-fish.jpg" width="217" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: center;">PLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASE</div>Rianna Sapienhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08738585927365787795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6047660794152525265.post-89159560439564383672010-08-18T12:57:00.000-07:002010-08-18T12:57:27.370-07:00We couldn’t fake it so why even try?Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life<br />
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The only thing I ever hope to do, is be the best mother and wife I could possibly be. Thats all i ever need to be. Thats what makes me happy.<br />
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Day 5 – A photo of yourself two years ago.<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/83/l_fb5fbb28f8a21a3f6d21e8750b621337.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="300" ox="true" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/83/l_fb5fbb28f8a21a3f6d21e8750b621337.jpg" width="400" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">I was 18 here. I ws skinnier, had better hair. And awesome sunglasses</div>Rianna Sapienhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08738585927365787795noreply@blogger.com0