No motivation

i need to loose alot of weight and so far my motivation to do so is pure shit

It doesnt help that I am home alone 80% of the time so barely have the help i need with Adrien so i can get my life back on track.

I dont want to go to Jakes moms house this weekend for 4 days. Not that I don't like his family..i just feel so insecure there. His mom and sisters are all in shape and little.

I used to be like that but now i look gross and i just hate being next to them. It makes me feel awful about myself. I tried loosing 10lbs by saturday but I am just not doing something right

plus ppd doesnt give me the energy i deserve. I should really make a doctor appt.