Friday morning we FINALLY leave to go to Bridgeport. I have been waiting over a damn year for this vacation to happen. I am packing up Adriens clothes and toys tonight and some of our other stuff. The rest of the big things that Adrien uses daily will be packed up tomorrow night.
I am so excited I could throw up
I have some confessions though. The big reason I am excited becuasae I am hoping this trip will be my PPD medicine. I havent seen a doctor or anyone yet, I am treating this on my own. I have my good days and I have my bad days, from here I just need to take it one day at a time. I know Jake wants me to get help because sometimes I take it out on him. But we will see were I stand when we get back home.
Adrien can be overwhelming sometimes because he is turning into such an independent little boy, but suprising I dont get frustrated. I get worn out but it doesnt bother me anymore, I am used to dealing with him on my own most of everyday. The good thing about Adrien is he loves playing by himself, which makes me sad sometimes. I wish he was still that little baby that wanted to take his naps on me and sit with me all day long. Now I can barely get him to hang out with me, he either wants to play in his crib with his toys, crawl on the ground, or play in his jumperoo. Its nice to be able to get things done while he quietly[sometimes] plays...I just miss that needy baby.
Well he is awake now and hungry. nd I need to go finish laundry. See you later blog.