Thursday, September 16, 2010

Gotta fit this all in my post today, I leave at 4am.

Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?

No, never. I am not that stupid and not that selfish.
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
I have a family, and I am really damn terrific at being a mother. If I do say so myself
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
I got pregnant last year, had a beautiful little boy. Its not the struggle I expected. It really is very rewarding, given that I never wanted to have kids. ever. I really feel lucky everyday, and I am proud of my decisions.
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
I want to be less bitchy. Hopefully this vacation helps, if not we might need some medical intervention. I also want to lose alot of weight. I am on the road to that, i have lost 7lbs in the last week and a half, woohoo.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself
[I will leave this one for when I come back and have more time.]
Day 26 – A photo of somewhere you’ve been to.

Virginia City Nevada. Ill be there again next week too :]
Day 27 – A picture of you last year and now and how have you changed since then?

This was about 10 or 11 months ago. I am pregnant here. I am not pregnant anymore obviously, but I am not as thin as before pregnant and not as cute anymore. I also became a mother since then.
Day 28 – Your favorite movie.

Day 29 – Something you could never get tired of doing.
Singing. I could sing all day everyday.

Day 30 – A photograph of youself today + three good things that have happened in the past 30 days
[I will do this one once i get back and have more time.]

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Almost time.

Friday morning we FINALLY leave to go to Bridgeport. I have been waiting over a damn year for this vacation to happen. I am packing up Adriens clothes and toys tonight and some of our other stuff. The rest of the big things that Adrien uses daily will be packed up tomorrow night.
I am so excited I could throw up

I have some confessions though. The big reason I am excited becuasae I am hoping this trip will be my PPD medicine. I havent seen a doctor or anyone yet, I am treating this on my own. I have my good days and I have my bad days, from here I just need to take it one day at a time. I know Jake wants me to get help because sometimes I take it out on him. But we will see were I stand when we get back home.
Adrien can be overwhelming sometimes because he is turning into such an independent little boy, but suprising I dont get frustrated. I get worn out but it doesnt bother me anymore, I am used to dealing with him on my own most of everyday. The good thing about Adrien is he loves playing by himself, which makes me sad sometimes. I wish he was still that little baby that wanted to take his naps on me and sit with me all day long. Now I can barely get him to hang out with me, he either wants to play in his crib with his toys, crawl on the ground, or play in his jumperoo. Its nice to be able to get things done while he quietly[sometimes] plays...I just miss that needy baby.

Well he is awake now and hungry. nd I need to go finish laundry. See you later  blog.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.

Iwish I would have taken the oppurtunity to play college basketball. My fault I know, but I feel like I could have really improved and been great.
Day 24 → was too much work right i DELETED.

Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today

Day 23 – 15 facts about you.

1. I am obsessed with the color yellow.
2. I am OBSESSED with Jellyfish
3. I am obsessed with Dexter
4. My son is my world
5. So is my amazing Jake.
6. I wear a size 7 shoe
7. I am mexican[fullblood]
8. I love being a stay at home mom, I feel very lucky to even have the privalege.
9. I love dogs, I have two large labs[yellow and black]
10. I want to make cake for a living
11. I never wear my hair natural[curly] I straighten it before I go anywhere..always
12. I am terrified of a sissy lala
13. I hate cantaloupe.
14. I love to sing, but to myself.
15. Despite being a natural everyday loner..I really do have a big heart and can be very social and fun sometimes.
Day 24 – A photo of something that means a lot to you.

Day 25 – What’s in your purse?
I dont have a purse. That was easy haha

Monday, September 13, 2010

Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

Be there for the friend. Absolutely. Justbecuase we had a fight doesnt mean that automatically relinquishes my loyalty. A fight doesnt determine whether or not you should be there for someone in need when it involves thier well being. Its called being a decent human being, and I do have a heart. Of course there are other circumstances [yeah maybe if you murdered my dog i wouldnt give a damn about your car accident] but just verbal arguments over things that arent too serious, there should be no reason to stay away.
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
I wish I wouldnt have left the varsity team and continued playing. that will kick my ass everyday..even though i wouldnt have been able to continure playing much longer anyways...I will always miss it.
Day 21 – A photo of something that makes you happy.

Day 22 – A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
i dont want to.

Thursday, September 9, 2010

19 20

Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Im not into either. I am mostly neutral on everything, serious debates or not my forte.

Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Niether is good. But alcohol can be acceptable in moderation and if you are not being an absolute idiot.
I hate drugs, I hate weed and I really am not a fan of alcohol much either. I have seen what it does to people firsthand. Some people really dont know how to JUST have a goodtime without getting out of hand. I dont really put myself around any of that anymore
Day 19 – Another picture of yourself.

most recent

Day 20 – The meaning behind your blog name
Its a Tegan and Sara song. It just brought back some memories of the summer of 07. Sometimes i hear it in the back of my head when I am taking Adrien for a walk or if the AC is on. Its wierd.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage
FOR FOR FOR FOR. As a proud sister of a lesbian, I will always be 100% supportive to the Gay Rights movement. I wish only good things, equality, and happiness for my sister as a citizen of this country.

Day 18 – Something you crave a lot
oh boy

I crave food like a pregnant woman becuase i dont really eat food anymore. Its just portein shakes, bars and salads for me everyday.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something
I Was Told there would be cake. I will now make the best of my humiliations.

Day 17 – A photo of you and your family
here is some

I dont really have full family pictures on here..

Monday, September 6, 2010

Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without
Oh I could definitely name a few thats for sure. But if I have to pick one, itd be my sisters Ex Husband. He is bringing the dramzz constantly. My sister had to change her number recently and now my entire family knows about that whole wierd situation and everyones texting me and asking me questions and it makes me look like a dummy. I wish this whole thing never happend. I also hate hearing my sister calling me in tears becuase he is being mean to her and wont be civil. You  really dont know who people really are sometimes...

Day 16 – Your celebrity crush

I am obsessed

Saturday, September 4, 2010

Bullshit. you are no friend of mine.

Friday, September 3, 2010

Going to pack a few days into one post.

Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.

Alot of things. I dont have many[if any] complimentable attributes.

Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Alot of bands and artist have pulled me through some rough times. I am not a social butterfly so I spen alot of time alone, gotta find something to occupy the brain. Tegan and Sara, Alkaline trio, Test Icicles, As Tall As Lions, Forgive Durden, Incubus. The lastest Paramore cd and Lady Gaga got me through my pregnancy...haha.
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Dear You,
I am going through this alone without you. That sucks.
Love, Me.

Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
I havent tried and I never want to. But my son and Jake. Gotta have them forever yo.
Day 12 – A photograph of the town you live in.

Day 13 – Your favorite musician and why?
Tegan and sara, becuase they are hot and that rock.
Day 14 – A TV show you’re currently addicted to.
Day 15 – Something you don’t leave the house without.
My phone. If I have adrien then I never leave without his monkey blanky, extra boppys, diapers, etc. you get it

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

16 more days till super vacation

Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
I dont get compliments really. But I guess I have on occasion been complimented on my thick mexican hair. In the right conditions it curls nicely[naturally of course] and that seems to be a crowd pleaser.[ well with my mom dad, and Jakes mom and sisters. they all like my natural hair..i dont]

Day 11 – What’s in your makeup bag?
I dont have a makeupo bag, my makeup sits in on a shelf in the bathroom and whatever i need i throw into the zipperpocket of Adriens diaper bag. Usually just foundations, powder finish, mascara, eyeliner. sometimes a shimmer lid finish.