Thursday, August 12, 2010

Day one.

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself

Mostly, I just hate my body. I was never the skinniest person[thats a lie, I was genetically just severely underweight as a child. I was always at least two sizes smaller than average] Highschool I was just average, not fat nor skinny. I gained some, then lost some. My 18th year was when I was most comfortable. I was fit and cute. Since having Adrien and some stress prior to being pregnant, I guess you could say I let myself go. I dont go out, Invite people over, or even get dressed half the time becuase the hate I feel for my body and looks seems to hang over my daily activites like a black cloud. I have been working on getting back into shape but progress is slow and Adrien's schedule is very demanding. Jake works all day everyday so I never get a break really to workout and boost my selfesteem. He doesnt know that I hate how I look and I dont intend on telling him. But it wears me down and I am not going to lie, tears do get shed.

Day 1 – A photo of yourself and a description of how your day was
I hope this didnt mean a photo from today..
My day has been well, I got up and showered.[hesitantly] Got dressed and waited for Jake to get ready so we could run to Target for some baby formula. Nicole came over and we chatted and hungout while I waited for Erik to get back home. Then he hungout with Nicole and Jake and i went to Target. Came home and Nicole was gone, had lunch with Jake, watch Wallace and Gromit: A Grand Day Out.
Jake left for work, I fed Adrien some applesauce for lunch. And here I am,
I guarentee the rest of the day I will be cleaning, working out for 45min, playing with Adrien, Wtching Dexter reruns. Thats my everyday schedule.
gooday

3 comments:

  1. Aww I'm sorry you feel that way. :(

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  2. i think your beautiful. & i'm in love with dexter morgan. :D

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  3. Thanks loves. Sara, im in LOVE with him too. he is so dreamy

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